Hello Love<3. What does the name mean?
I have a lot to say and share with you, but school just started for me with the 50+ hour full-time job I have. I can come on here and post in tidbits however. I did a post on here, I think in the biblical questions and answers section about how to control our thoughts. I think that would be helpful to you. Such thoughts as those you described are really not your thoughts at all. Remember Satan or his demons can implant his thoughts to you and he wants you to think that his thoughts are your thoughts. You recall that Satan got Eve to take on his thoughts because picking and eating the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil was not Eve's idea, but Satan's. She claimed the idea when she acted on the thought, but it did not originate from her.
We are a triune people, just like God is a Triune God. People consist of a body, soul and spirit. The body is called the flesh in Scripture. The flesh is contaminated by sin and Jesus did nothing for that. The soul is our personality. The soul is what makes you unique. It is the life in you. Animals also have souls. They have personalities and they have life or the ability to eat, breathe and live. The spirit is unique to mankind. Animals do not have spirits. Job 32: 8 explains that "it is the spirit in a man, the breath of the Almighty, that gives him understanding." God breathed breath or the spirit into man, that is, Adam and Eve, God did not do that with animals. For animals, God just said let them be and they were alive with souls. But with man, He breathed a spirit from His own breath into man. Job 32: 8 says that this spirit in us gives us understanding, that is, it gives us the knowledge of the Creator Himself. Our spirits connect us to God in a unique way that animals do not have.
Jesus did not die to save our bodies. We will drop our sin-contaminated bodies and be raised new ones one day. Jesus' death and resurrection did not save our souls. Our souls are becoming saved through Christ. But what His resurrection did do, is that it changed our spirits to be perfect like His Spirit. Of this, the bible says that we are new creations in Christ Jesus. The new has come and the old is gone. We are no longer who we were, we are raised, by our faith in Jesus to be perfect beings, holy and righteous in Jesus. That part of us is perfect like Jesus. And that is who we are. You are not who you were before you got saved. Sinners without Christ still did not have their spirits changed and purified. Because of Adam, all of mankind's spirits got corrupted. But Jesus made us new creatures.
So evil thoughts are not your thoughts. Evil thoughts can only originate from the flesh in a Christian, it cannot come from the spirit in them because that has been made perfect in Christ. The flesh, again, is your body, which includes your brain by which you think, your hands by which you touch what God says don't touch, and your mouth by which profanity might come out of. Our souls choose which to listen to. We could choose to listen to the flesh, which is what Satan speaks to and tries to tempt you by, or we could choose to listen to the spirit, which has been made perfect and can only think holy thoughts from God. Just know that the flesh, Romans 6 says, is crucified with Christ, meaning it lost its power if you are a Christian. The flesh is dead in Christ. Jesus killed it and its power against you. You no longer have to abide by it as long as you know your new identity in Jesus Christ.
So with that introduction, go ahead and read the thread I wrote: How to Control our Thoughts, and maybe also, Who We are In Christ. I need to revise those a bit to correctly state in them that Jesus changed only our spirits. I incorrectly stated that He changed our spirits and souls. But He completely changed our spirits and our souls are becoming saved and that takes a lifetime of Christian living to continually be fashioned towards becoming perfect. God will complete our perfection, that is, perfect our souls, when we come into His presence in the next life. But the spirit in you is perfect. And the Holy Spirit is also in you and He is perfect as well.
My point is don't accept the thoughts of the flesh or the thoughts of Satan and his demons as your thoughts. Your thoughts are perfect. 1 John 3:9 says that the new you cannot sin. The new you is incapable of sinning because God's seed (His Spirit) remains in you. By your perfected spirit in you you cannot sin. You can only choose to sin if you claim and take on the thoughts of the flesh or of Satan. Those thoughts are dead thoughts. Satan is a defeated foe. He can only tell lies to you. Your flesh is defeated. It was crucified with Jesus and you have been raised with him so that you will no longer be slaves to sin (Romans 6:6). You have been set free from sin (Romans 6:18). Sin will not be your master because you are now under grace (Romans 6:15). Romans is a pretty good book to study. Read Romans 8 too.
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I am not sure of the onset of the anxiety. This time around, I think it could be related to some stresses in my life although the fears I face have nothing to do with the actually problems. I have Crohns desease, and so I take the medication Humira. Though it is difficult for me not to have fears about taking this injection, I can usually control these okay. Recently I made a move from my apartment because of a bad roommate situation and am also having my limphnodes biopsied next week for a possibly case of limphoma (very scary:( ). 
